TITLE: lalala
ENTRY DATE: 3/9/2026 [ 6:19 AM ]
FEELING: sleepy
LISTENING TO: markiplier playing resident evil
first journal entry this year. 3 months into it LOL
i saw iron lung in theaters on the 30th or january & then watched it 5 more times after that (also in theaters) because it was That Good. incredible. i cannot wait until it comes out digitally so i can watch it again with my friends. i need it on DVD so bad. so fucking bad. i cannot wait for that. im so excited
SPEAKING OF FRIENDS. ive been chatting it up with my friends more often. i played thru half life on call & it was so fun it was literally. so fun. i loved it so much it was So Cool. im not very good at games like that (or any video games in general really.) but i got thru it evn though i struggled a lot LOL. i got stuck with like 10 hp in various areas that did NOT want me to heal i guess.
hanging out with friends is so fun. im so glad i have them. im not very good at maintaining friendships so this is very new to me LOL. not that i fall out with people often, im just a socially inept little hermit who doesnt like to reach out very often. not to mention my selective mutism getting the best of me most days. im slowly recovering though ?its getting better from what i can tell, which is really suprising bc im curently unmedicated & im no longer in therapy LOL. not that any of it was helping me before.
Anyways. im currently fixated on something new. My Own OC Universe. its been taking up a lot of my brain lately.
worldbuilding is really fun. i love to think of things to add to my little story & the world it takes place in. ive been imagining a world bigger than my usual OC concepts. & also. a video game. i want to make a video game.

( image description: early concept art of my OC, Luca, the main character in my story "Starlight" )
as u can probably tell from the fact that this page has no real CSS, i am bad at really any type of coding & im also quite lazy. its unlikely id be very good at learning how to code a game. but! somehow! i have a lot of hope in this project of mine. ive been slowly learning how to model in blender, so thats a start i guess. its incredibly ambitious, but. thats fine. its fine.
( image description: my OC, Luca, in the AT-5 blood ocean from iron lung. not canon to "Starlight" )
i dont want to give away anything about this project but it mostly takes place on a space station, Years after Earth was deemed uninhabitable. fun stuff. u can read more about my the main character, Luca, here (toyhou.se link) if u really want to.
anyways. im going to go sketch more concepts & then probably go to bed. since i havent slept yet LOL. thanks for reading